I can be driven. To put it mildly.
When I built this website I got so involved in the process I couldn’t sleep. I worked on it all day and all night, barely stopping to eat (and I LOVE eating). Finally at 7 a.m. I fell asleep out of sheer exhaustion on top of my laptop. But it was awesome. I had so much fun, I couldn’t stop writing content and organizing material and learning little bits of css and downloading the perfect widgets.
I was inspired both by learning how to do new things (I’d built a site before but there’s always new things to figure out) and by the fact that I was creating something that explained me, the things I’m interested in and the work I like to do.
I had that same drive when I started blogging. I had so many things to say I wanted to post more than once a day. But I haven’t written a post in a while, and quite frankly in the past few weeks I haven’t been very driven to build my business. To be fair, I was away in Montreal, visiting family and doing interviews for my book and also went on a camping trip far beyond the reach of cell phone service and wifi. So maybe I got a little off-track thanks to time away. But it’s not just that. When you are your own boss, you are at the mercy of your own discipline – or your own laziness – and it takes work to keep on working. It also takes inspiration.
As I’ve gotten back to a regular routine, looking for/going after work etc. I’ve been having a hard time focusing and feeling that drive. It’s not that I’ve forgotten what I want to do or why or that I want it any less than I did before. It’s simply that, for a variety of reasons, sometimes you get complacent and distracted. So I went on a search for inspiration. Not surprisingly, words inspire me greatly and this speech excerpt by Teddy Roosevelt reminds me that success is simply the courage of being in the arena, trying again and again.